Wow, its been a while. These last couple months have been CRAZY! But here we are the last day of 2017 and I knew I had to write a blog about it all. 2017 was by far the most incredible year of my life, God moved in my life in so many different ways. Many ways you all know about and some you don’t but I will share today. To say God grew and stretched me this year would be an understatement. I am so proud of the person God has molded me into today and can’t wait to see how he continues to mold me in 2018. Back to 2017, it all started with an adoption announcement. We had been working on adoption paperwork the end of 2016 but 2017 was the year we told everyone our plans. I remember being so scared in the beginning of our wait to adopt. So many unknowns, so many what if’s, so much waiting to do. What I didn’t know at the time is we would only wait six months and meet our incredible son on July 17th 2017. Oh what a glorious day that was. But in the 6 month wait God used every single second. In the wait I had to give it all to God MULTIPLE times, I had to stop trying to control something I has no control over and “trust without borders.” I had to be broken down to the point of being on my knees crying out to the Lord, to take this whole process and make it his. It’s amazing how many times I had to give the adoption to God and then how many times I tried to take back the reins. I am thankful for a Father who loves us even when we make the same mistake over and over again. In the midst of all of the waiting I also had a Laparoscopy for my Endometriosis. That day was scary and when the doctors didn’t find anything it made me angry. I was thankful don’t get me wrong, but I was also so confused and angry. My mom thinks there was a miracle because of all the people praying for me before and maybe there was. I will say I still have some symptoms but they aren’t as bad as they were before the surgery. Ephesians 3:20-21 (NKJV)20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
I found out we were matched with our birth-mom K a month after the surgery. That day June 21st is one I will never forget. I was so grumpy that day, but God still had me open up the information on K and pray for her my whole lunch break. That evening getting home and still being so grumpy and Dan telling me the news I fell to our kitchen floor sobbing and laughing is disbelief. I remember calling my mom and trying to tell her but I was crying so hard she couldn’t understand me.Then the following week meeting K for the first time. I was so nervous walking into that restaurant but as soon as K smiled at me I knew without a doubt that she was carrying our son and that we would have a beautiful relationship with K and her family. You see God had this all written out before we even knew we would adopt. God knew that we needed each other. That we would be able to form this new family unit brought together all because of the most amazing little baby boy. Or on the night of Karsten’s birth, the hospital was supposed to have a room for us so we could stay with Karsten. Well long story short the hospital didn’t and at 10 pm at night in a town we really don’t know well we had to leave our new son and get a hotel. I know that was God saying “one more time Karla, trust me, I have gotten you this far I wont fail you now.” I trusted and the peace I felt that night still amazes me. The fact that I slept all night, that my friends was a peace only God could give. The months following Karsten’s birth have been amazing. I love being his mom and I feel so very honored I get to call him my son. I love him in a way I didn’t know possible. Just like I love K and her family in a different way but one I also didn’t know possible. God’s fingerprints have been all over this story and they continue to be.
There has also be some completely unexpected things happen, like the early miscarriage I had in September. I still feel a little numb when I think about it, but I also feel it’s something to share so other women know they aren’t alone. You are not and yeah it sucks. I knew the moment I was pregnant and I knew the moment when I wasn’t anymore. It was an early one, I am thankful for that but it still changes you. It brought up some old infertility issues I have with myself that I hadn’t thought about in months. It shook my core pretty hard but God was still in the midst of the sadness and bad feelings. He also provided words of encouragement from a sweet friend who I haven’t seen in a long while. My love for my hubby and Karsten grew ever more through this trial and of course my mom (my best friend) was with me in it. Even in the most joyful time of my life being a new mom to Karsten, I found myself down in the depths crying out to God but he was there to pull me back up.
We also came to the decision that we needed to leave our beloved farm and move into Monument. That was a hard one, it started with me not having enough time for my horse and realizing she needed to be with an owner who did have the time. After I crossed that bridge which took me a couple of months, God made it very clear it was time to be a part of our community. I honestly thought when I went to talk to Dan about it all that he was going to laugh at me. But he surprised the heck out of me when he agreed. After that things moved very fast. I mean very fast. We had an offer in a little over three weeks. We then had to move very fast on find a house in Monument, homes in our price range would sell in like 3 days or faster. I had this list in my head of things we wanted and needed in a new home but we were just going to look at everything. Well everything but new homes(more than half of the homes for sale in monument are new builds!). But at about midnight the morning we were going to look at homes I just knew we had to look at this new build in this neighborhood my mom had shown me. Sure enough after looking at 10 houses in a couple of hours the new build was the one for us. The house I thought I would like the least! HA! Since being here I know without a doubt that this is exactly where God wants us to be, to better serve him. How exactly I’m not sure but all I do know is I will go where the Lord calls me, so we are here in Monument so excited to raise our son here and to see what God has planned for us!
Another thing you may not know is before we decided on traditional domestic adoption we considered foster care. We even did a walk through at Hope and Home an awesome foster care facility in Colorado Springs. We knew very quickly the wasn’t going to be the route for us just yet but has been something in the back of our heads for a long while. On the night of Nov, 27th I was in bed doing my devotional and praying. I was praying to God asking him to use me. I felt used almost every day I was at work, I was there to touch people’s lives at the vet clinic whether that be making someone smile or supporting someone through the euthanasia of their pet. But I felt that I wasn’t being used as much since being a stay at home mom. The next day I got a call from our adoption agency, there was a little girl born in Boulder, her adoptive family had already been picked but there was a paternity issue and a DNA test needed to be done. So they needed a place for this sweet baby girl to live while they waited on the DNA test. The adoptive family lived in Colorado Springs so they wanted some place close to them. Without even asking Dan I said of course (Dan agreed with me once I told him). They told me to hold tight and be ready to drive up to Boulder to get her. I chuckled a little since I has asked God to use me the night before! So we waited, hoping she wouldn’t have to come stay with us but ready and willing if she did. Well the hospital agreed to let sweet baby girl stay until Thursday when the test came back. After learning that I was pretty certain she wouldn’t be coming and went on with packing for the move. Thursday morning I get another call saying the DNA place messed up and she would have to come stay with us for one night. So I packed up the car and drove just under two hours to Boulder to bring this tiny little baby girl home with us for the night. Lets pause and go back about a year to us beginning our adoption process, the adoption agency has online profiles of all the waiting families, so I was going through it and one couple really stood out to me. They had been waiting for a long time and had already had a pretty traumatic situation with adoption, we shall call the K&M. Well after reading K&M’s story I decided I would pray from them, and I had been praying for them for the past year. Fast forward to being to Boulder to bring baby girl home. after talking to the case worker I was told the potential adoptive parents were K&M. WHAT!?!?! I was floored it was the couple I had been praying for, my heart ached for them knowing their story but I could also see how God had put all this together. Well we were only supposed to have baby girl for a night but this DNA place was really awful and kept messing up and she ended up being with us for six days! It was not what any of us wanted for baby girl, we all just wanted her with K&M but I was so thankful to be able to provide a warm and loving home for her in the wait for the DNA test. Well all went as planned and on December 5th little girl got to go home with K&M. It was such a humbling experience to watch them with her when they came to get her, we even did the placement ceremony at our home and the birth parents came down from Boulder. It was so beautiful to watch these two families become one because of this tiny little baby girl. I felt honored to have been able to witness another families adoption story and even though her stay with the Baumann’s wasn’t a part of the plan I was grateful to be able to serve the Lord this way. This precious little girl will always hold a special place in my heart and I have loved watching her family become one and love her so well! K&M are amazing people and I feel so blessed to have been a part of their story, especially after praying for them for over a year. It all came full circle in the best way possible. Who knows maybe this is just the start of Dan and I becoming foster parents, maybe not, either way I was thankful to be able to serve the Lord!
GOD IS SO GOOD! This year was one for the books, the most amazing, challenging, inspiring, stretching, heart breaking, loving, unbelievable, God filled year. All I know is I was always TRUST WITHOUT BORDERS and where you call me Lord, I WILL GO!
Happy New Year!