Time keeps flying by

This last couple of weeks have been a whirlwind. I suppose that is a good thing because it makes the weeks go by fast and brings us closer and closer to Baby Baumann. God already has the month, day and hour we will meet our precious baby picked out. This last week we got to go to the main fundraiser that Hopes Promise (our adoption agency) does every year. It was a blast! We went with our great friends and fellow waiting adoptive parents. I am so excited for our friends and the child God has planned for them. I am also so excited we get to walk this journey with them. That our children will get to grow up together and get to have a friend who is also adopted! There was also some awesome food at the event! Next weekend we have a two-day adoption training. I am so excited for this. It has been fun having events that have to do with our agency and our adoption. Annabella also came home yesterday. It feels so good to have her home. I am excited for her to get settled and to really get to know her and start building our relationship!

Please continue to pray for peace in our hearts during this waiting period! (It’s a little rough some days) Please pray for our future birth mom and dad. Please pray for our future child. If you can also pray those same prayers for our sweet friends who are also waiting that would be great!

~Karla

 

All part of the journey

I’m going to be real here. These last couple of week have been rough. I have got emotions like a roller coaster! There have been so many good things going on but also things out of my control that I don’t really like. One of those being my endometriosis. I was diagnosed about three years ago and have been able to manage it with acupuncture and diet. But this last month and a half have been by far the worse symptoms I have ever had! I mean ever! The pain can take me to my knees. So after seeing my girly doctor for a annual and ultrasound it was decided it was time to get a bit more serious about this all. So in May I will be going in for an outpatient laparoscopy. They will take a look in there and then cut out any endometriosis they find. I am nervous but also extremely excited for the pain relief that will come after the healing. I will be out of work for about 2 weeks and won’t be able to ride Annabelle for 3 weeks… That is the worse thing about it all! NO RIDING FOR AT LEAST 3 WEEKS!!! AAH!

I won’t lie to you all I am scared for the surgery. But the hardest part is that it kind of digs up my old wounds and feelings about my endometriosis. It adds to the stress and uncertainty of the wait to adopt. But I know it is the right thing to do and this way when we are picked by a birth mom and we get our baby I will feel awesome. I may feel the best I have felt in over 5 years!!! Wouldn’t that be amazing?!

As for the adoption we are still in the “great wait”. I do feel it is getting easier, I mean it has already been three months since we got approved. Times is going very fast and I know it is all in his hands. The last weekend of the month we will be in Castle Rock for a weekend adoption training. I hear its pretty intense but I am excited to learn! I am excited to meet other couples who are adopting. I am excited to become more educated about adoption.

So if you all can continue to pray for our future child and birth mom. If you can pray that my little surgery goes smoothly and recovery is fast. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for joining us on this journey!

Karla

 

How Adoption has already changed my life

So, how has adoption already changed my life? Well first off my sister Kari is adopted. My parents went over to Romania to get my sister when I was two. I dont remember life without Kari, she has always been my sister and Im so thankful she is. When we were kids Kari and I shared a room so we did like everything together. I also grew up with two adopted cousins. Adoption has always been a part of my life. When I was about ten I went through this phase where I wasn’t going to get married, I was going to ride a motorcycle and I was going to adopt so I could still be a mom. As I got older many of those wants changed but one that did not was the desire to adopt. I think I told Dan I wanted to adopt a child on our first date! It had become something that I knew was a part of my story. It was already a part of my story. If my parents didn’t listen to the call to adopt our family would have always had a missing piece. I would have grown up with just one older sister and my little brother. How boring that would have been. If my parents didnt adopt my beautiful older sister then I probably wouldn’t be adopting either. Not only did my parents make our family whole by adopting but they also planted the seed that is going to make my family whole as well. I am so thankful my mom knew she had a daughter waiting for her in Romania. Adoption has always and will always be a part of my life. I am so thankful for each and every one of my siblings. I love how different we all are but I also love how each one of us fits into our family perfectly and make it whole. I find it incredible to think, that God knew one of my sisters was in Romania and that she would fit perfectly into our family. I think its amazing that God already knows who our future baby is and that this child will also become a perfect fit for Dan and I. Adoption can be hard and it can be messy. No everything wasnt always rainbows and sunshine growing up, all 4 of us kids went through  growing pains and rebellion. It isnt about  being perfect, its about that at the end of the day we are still family and love each other. At the end of the day God chose us to be a family even if that means traveling to another country to bring my sister home or waiting for a birth-mom to pick us to be the parents of her baby. Family isnt always about blood, its about loving one another no matter what. Its about being there during the messy, silly, sad, fun, frustrating and incredible moments of life. Adoption isnt always an easy ride, I am aware of that. I am also aware of the beauty of adoption. My sister, she is the beauty of adoption. She is the amazing part of my family that was so special my parents traveled to another country to bring her home. She is one of the reasons I am so excited to adopt. I cant wait for my child to learn their adoption story, to hear their Auntie Kari’s adoption story. Adoption isnt always sad, it is an incredible story of how God brings families together.

A horse and a song

That’s right my husband got me a horse for my Birthday! Trust me I am as surprised as you! So how in the world did the topic of us getting a horse while we are waiting to adopt even happen? So one of my doctors as work has many horses, mules and donkeys. Back in January we were talking about some things that have happened in her life that will require her traveling a little more. She started talking about her sweet 5 year old mare and how she really should find her a new home because she just doesn’t have the time. She then turned to me and said Karla, I know you have been wanting another horse and I think she would be perfect for you! I kind of laughed and said I wish but we are waiting to adopt a baby and we still need to get our horse fencing done and what not. My sweet doctor then said, I just want her to have a good home, I will just give her to you if you can take her! You can also borrow my horse trailer whenever you need it until you get one. I told her I would ask Dan but didnt think it was a possibility. So that evening I came home and told Dan about it all and that I really understood if it was a no but had to ask because how often do you get offered a great horse just because the current owner wants her to have a good home. I also asked because getting another horse has been a hope and dream for me. That is part of the reason we moved to the house we did almost 3 years ago. It has a barn and a riding arena and all the pasture needed. So I asked Dan, at first he looked at me like I was slightly crazy and then he said, “just let me think about it.”. So I dropped it and let my very analytical husband think about it.  Well weeks of thinking turned into over a month of thinking. So about a week ago we were driving home and I asked if he was still thinking. He was, so I said well lets just talk it through. So we did and decided it probably wasn’t a possibility right now. So I dropped it and really haven’t thought of it since. Dan is a man who loves to surprise the people he loves, he really loves to surprise me. So last night I opened an envelope and there was a hand made card. It had owls on it( which if you know me you know I LOVE owls) and he wrote a very sweet note on it that left me wondering what was on the inside. I was very confused and honestly was like, maybe I get to go to a cool concert or something. Then I opened it and there was a picture of my new sweet mare. I instantly started crying and was in complete shock!!!! I MEAN COMPLETE SHOCK! So that is the story on how my husband who loves to make huge surprises for me pulled off one heck of a surprise!

So yes we are getting a horse while we are waiting to adopt. I know that sounds crazy but it is totally how we do things in this house. Us Baumann’s never do anything small or the easy way. But the truth is that it may take another 1.5 years before we even get to adopt. Our awesome social worker told us the best advice to get through this wait is to not put your life on hold, to keep living your life. So that is what we are doing we are living our life and it happens to include getting a horse. So whether we get our baby in 2 months or 2 years we are going to continue to live our life and not pause it. I cannot wait to get back in the saddle! I cant wait to be able to go riding after a long day at work, or when the wait of the adopt is getting to me! For me horses have always be more than just a passion, they are a therapy and I know many other horse people who would say that. But more than anything, I am so excited that my child gets to grow up with a horse!!!! From day one our child will have a horse and I can teach him or her to ride! I feel so beyond blessed that I will get to raise a child on our 5 beautiful acres, on our little hobby farm! I am still a bit in shock and almost felt like it was a dream when I woke up this morning!

Dan Baumann,

You are far more than I deserve. You know me and my love language so perfectly. I feel so blessed to call you my husband, I feel so blessed that when you met me and I told you my dream was to have a little hobby farm in the forest it didnt scare you. You just smiled and I know your brain was already going to work to make it a possibility. You love me so well, even when Im a crazy emotional mess! Dan I am so thankful beyond words that I get to call you my husband. You pulled off the biggest surprise you could have pulled off! I love you forever and always my incredible husband!

Love,  Karla

I got my first horse on my 15th  birthday as a surprise and 12 years later I got my third horse as a surprise on my 27th birthday! I am still in shock but feel so so loved. So now we just have to get all our fencing up before she gets out of training! That is also a good thing because we will finish the two stalls we are going to be boarding horses in. So we will have my sweet mare and two horses we board here. That is how Im going to bring in a little income once Im a stay at home mom. This week has been full of surprises I would never ever expect. God is way too good!

I will also be singing with the worship band at church this Sunday! I am so excited, I had practice on my birthday and it was so much fun! I have always loved to sing and have been told I have a great voice, but have always been a bit shy about it. As I would say to my mom, I like to pull it out when people least expect it and surprise everyone! Ha! Well, God has really been pulling on my heart strings to start and use my gift for him. So that is what Im gonna do! I hope I can use my voice to touch peoples hearts for God. Yea this week has brought a lot of new adventures to this family! But as long as we have God, anything is possible!

~Karla

Just waiting

That is where we are…We are just waiting. This has by far been the hardest part thus far. I mean the hardest. I knew it would be but man. These last two weeks have been hard for me. I have had probably the worse flare up of my endometriosis I have ever had. It just drains you, the constant pain and discomfort. I have been extra stressed at work on top of all the endometriosis stuff. This too has made the waiting game harder. But I am still so thankful for God’s loving arms around me. I have really felt them these last two weeks. Even when I have been very grumpy and not the best Karla I could be. I have been trying to take more time out with God and myself. So far every single night this week I have spent extra time with God and have taken an hour long bath. It is helping me one feel better and two helps me try and focus on the bigger picture. It’s so easy to get sucked into the the questions and uncertainties of adoption. I have literally read our copy of our adoption book every single night this week. I started it as kind of a way to pray over it and pray for the birth parents that will be looking them. But it has almost turned into me questioning if we are good enough, if the book is good enough. I have had to tell myself over and over this week that God has this all planned out and our book will be perfect for the birth mom who picks us.  I was talking to one of my favorite clients at work this week, she currently has a foster baby that she will most likely be adopting later this year. She has been a foster mom for a couple years now. I was talking to her about the wait and how its been a little harder for me than I expected. She reminded me that its okay to talk about and that the only way we will make it through is by leaning on God. By giving him every fear, doubt, worry, and letting him handle it. He has gotten us this far, he will get us through the rest. I am thankful for unexpected conversations like that. God seems to always make them happen when you need them most. I didn’t know I would even be seeing this client this week. The conversation came up after I discharged her dog after he got neutered that day. But God knew I needed those words and her sweet encouragement. SO THANKFUL! So here we are still waiting, but instead of obsessing over something I have no control over I will give it to God. Gosh, how lucky are we that in any situation in life we can give it to God? I am sure thankful for that. So in the mean time I will keep dreaming of my future baby and I will keep leaning on my Lord and Savoir.  I will also keep busy because that is helpful! Tomorrow I am watching my friends almost one year old twins for a couple hours, then lunch with an old friend and an appointment I have been putting off for way too long! Next week I celebrate my birthday and am doing a joint birthday dinner with my sister and niece! All I know is I won’t let doubt creep in and ruin this part of our adoption journey. Its all part of the journey and I want to try and enjoy each and every day of it. God is in control and for that truth I am beyond thankful!

~ Karla

Working on the Nursery

So last Saturday we had a big work day in the nursery because we got new carpet this week and wanted to make sure the painting was done before the new carpet. So we asked my dad to come and help us out. My dad is a contractor and has done a ton of beautiful work in my house. So I knew I needed him to help make sure the nursery was on point! And of course it looks great. So because we don’t know what gender we are going to end up with I decided to go with a green color. The paint color is actually called “seedless grape”. I love it! I am also kind of in love with bright green colors. I have a wall in my guest bathroom that is bright green and in our last house I had a HUGE wall in my kitchen that was bright green. So it was an easy choice for me. The theme for the nursery is woodland creatures. I have gotten some pieces that can go either boy or girl and then once we know what we are having I will be able to add more girly things or more boy things. I love decorating so this is so much fun for me!

The weird part of it all is getting a nursery together and baby items, while having no idea when you will become parents. For me the waiting has been the hardest part of the process thus far. I didn’t mind the paperwork because it was something active to do and you could see the end . All the meetings with our social worker didn’t bother me because it also had an end goal. Now that we are waiting there is still an end goal but you can’t see it. At the moment the end is very far out of sight. In the stage we are at you have to live like you are adopting and could get a call at anytime but also continue to live your life and not expect a call. If I lived every day on my toes thinking I was about to get the call I would go CRAZY! It has been kind of a hard balance to find. But I think I am finally finding it.

Something that has helped me in this process is writing in my journal and being in the word of our Lord. This blog has actually helped me as well, it helps me process all things of the week and my emotions about waiting to adopt. God’s overwhelming peace has also be absolutely incredible. I am so thankful for that. Let’s not forget about my awesome husband who is a constant strong pillar for me. He is always so emotionally strong and is always there to talk me down when I let my emotions get the best of me. So thankful.

Philippians 4:6 (NIV)

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

John 14:27  (NIV)

27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

Hebrews 13:8 (NIV)

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

 

So Monday night I was laying in bed thinking about the week. I had a lot in front of me for the week and a very busy weekend. Then my mind turned to the blog. I was thinking, what in the world would I possibly write about this week? I had no idea, so I just went to bed. Around six in the morning on Tuesday I heard my phone ringing. Missing the call I looked at the phone and saw I missed a phone call from my sister. In my mind all I thought was, why in the world would she be calling me so early in the morning? So I called back, on the other end of the phone my sister told me that she was in labor and then asked the magical words, “would you like to be in the room for the delivery?” I have been asking her this since she had her oldest and was in shock that she asked the question. I was so excited and felt so honored she would allow me and my other sister witness our new nephew being born.

So I hustled to get ready, get some snacks for everyone and coffee for my bother-in-law and mom. Once as at the hospital we waited for a couple hours. At about 1:15 pm the nurse came back in to check Kim and see how far along she was. Kari and I went into the waiting room for about 15 minutes before Manny came and said it was time. I was so excited, it was time, time to see my nephew come into this world. It all happened much faster than expected and it was a life changing event. I now  believe every single person should see a baby being born before they die. The raw strength of my sister was absolutely incredible. The sweet quiet coaching of my bother-in-law amazing. Then to hear the very first cries of my nephews. That is a beautiful noise I will never forget. The whole experience was an amazing display of God’s love for us. An amazing display of love between my sister and my brother-in-law.

To Kim and Manny,

I thank you from the bottom of my heart  for letting me be in the room. I will never be able to truly repay you for letting me witness this. You opened my eyes to another form of God’s love I had yet to experience. Kim, you are an incredibly strong and beautiful person. I loved seeing the instant love you and Manny had for Brooks the moment you first saw him. To hear your sweet voice as you calmed his cries. To see how Brooks responded when he heard Manny’s voice and turned to it. I am forever grateful to you both and so proud of you both!

 

So the adoption, nothing new to share. Just waiting. But we did get the diaper bag and pack and play this week. That was fun and my diaper bag is super cute! We also got a baby duck, I wanted a female duck and my friend was getting some as well, so I decided to get a female. She is cute. So we keep waiting and trusting in the Lord. I am very thankful for this last week and the birth of my beautiful new nephew! God is good, God is good all the time!

~Karla

Adoption Book

So this week has been kind of a rough one. Stomach flu followed by a crazy migraine. Plus work was a tough one this week. But today I’m on the mend and in my “migraine hangover phase” so I’m at least functioning! YAY! 

So the adoption book, its a book that birth mothers who are going to make an adoption plan look at to pick  potential adoptive parents. So it is kind of a big part of the adoption process. Well we finally got ours in the mail yesterday! Dan will be taking them to our adoption agency this afternoon. They will then be in the hands of social workers all over the state of Colorado. Kind of crazy to think about. I don’t want to share all of our adoption book but I have included some pictures of parts of it. 

Making this book was pretty intense, but I also enjoyed it a lot. The hardest part was the letter to the birth parent and then the thank you. It was hard to find the exact words to let a person we have never met know how much we will love their child we have never met. To let them know that we are already in awe of their strength for choosing life and an adoption plan. To let them know we are open to an open adoption and always want their child to know and understand his or her story. That was hard, but then my great friend who is also adopting reminded me that God already has this birth mom picked out, already has a child in mind, and while my words may make one person not pick us they will be perfect words for the one who does. I was thankful for that reminder from my sweet friend and after I put my mind in that perspective, the words just came. 

The rest of the book was pretty fun to make. Just picking out the right pictures and giving them a look into our lives. My favorite page to make was the one on our pets…Well duh, I love them! So it was so easy and fun! For the pages on Dan and I, we wrote about each other. So I explained Dan and he explained me. That way we aren’t like well I’m so great because of this and I’m the best singer in the whole world, or I’m so good with technology I’m better than Steve Jobs…HA! Not that we would actually write that!!! Then there are pages on our incredible family, our friends, home, fun facts and the thank you. I wanted to keep the design fun but not to loud or over the top. 

So with the books in the hands of the social workers the wait truly does begin. I know God already has a perfect plan for it all. I can’t wait to see it unfold. I am holding on to this knowledge to help me stay calm and peaceful. Yesterday in my sickness I was laying on the couch and Mike & Molly came on. The two episodes I watched was the ones when they were making their adoption book and then when they finally got the baby. In these episodes they showed them just being absolutely crazy while waiting for “the call” and the struggle to stay sane. All I kept thinking was “Oh Lord, please, please don’t let me get that crazy during this process!” I had to giggle at it all but know that God is our peace during this time.

Thanks for reading. This week please pray for our adoption books. Please pray for the people who open and look at these books. Whether they pick us or not these girls are trying to make probably the hardest decision they have ever made.  

~Karla 

It’s true! We are Adopting!

If you find yourself on this page first off thank you so much for taking the time to look at this blog. Second, it’s true! We’re Adopting. Many may be wondering why, how long does this take, why not biological children? Im here to answer those questions but I’m also here to tell our adoption journey. To share with people, to bring awareness to adoption and to hopefully get all of your prayers during this time.

So why not biological children? This is a topic people feel afraid to ask, they dont want to upset or hurt us. Since starting this journey I have become a lot more open about it. Dan and I do want to have biological children, we hope God does bless us with one someday. But for me, adoption has ALWAYS been something I knew was part of my story. Dan learned I wanted to adopt, I think on our first date! So with prayers and God, Dan’s heart also turned to adoption. So when we learned I had endometriosis almost 3 years ago and learned it may take longer for us to conceive, we really began to seek and pray for God’s plan on how we would start a family. Last fall we both heard loud and clear that it was time to Adopt. We both feel so blessed that we have been chosen to walk this path.

How long does it take? This process can take a while. We started paperwork and the home study in late October last year and just finished with it and was approved earlier this week! We just order our adoption profile books, that birth mothers will look at and decide if they want to meet us. So now that we are in the “waiting pool” it can literally take 24 hours to 2 years. For our agency their average wait time last year was about 12.5 months. With some couples waiting longer and some shorter. So a lot of the time if we wont know anything until we know everything. There are many things I wont be able to share on this blog. But also things I can. So if you feel compelled to follow our journey know I will update with information when I can.

We feel so blessed to be walking this journey. This journey that can be a roller coaster of emotions. We are so grateful to have the support of our family and small group. We are very happy to be also walking this journey with another couple in our small group. God is so good!  So the praying and waiting has started. We know that God already has the perfect birth mom and child in mind (even if that child hasn’t been conceived yet). That knowledge is amazing! So if you can pray for peace for us during this wait that would be wonderful! Thank you for joining us on this journey!